What you will see here, in this astonishing 89 seconds, is a normally reserved man speak from his very depths with no filter to the world. As his wife of many years sat just 12 feet away. Filmed in front of a ‘Soul Biographies Live’ Audience.
This footage is revealing of what is under all Soul Biographies Inner View. Most probably a must for all drawn to the nature of these films. There is a field. This field is the very atmosphere in which I film. It elicits something different in nature. In Dallas, I sat in this field. This time, in front of the camera. And this is what happened.
‘… there’s so much love in my heart that it scares people to the point where it scares me sometimes.’ This is beautiful. Watch this gently. Watch this attentively. Watch this with yourself in mind. And know this. Wherever I go. Wherever I look. I find people like Anita. I find people like you.
The carer to a partner with a debilitating illness so often carries a vast unseen weight. A weight that can change so much. In the uncontrollable vulnerability of such a journey, one might break wide open. And in such fracture might exist vast questions.
It’s 2am. You’re wide awake. Feeling alone. Unseen. And inexplicably lost. Discontent despite all that you have around you. The people. Your life. Your dreams. You wear a face that tells the world you’re OK, but you’re not. You’re bone achingly tired from the relentless game of belonging.
‘… perhaps true beauty is something that draws our attention at second glance, once the judgment of a first glance has realised it’s mistake.’ This is a film about the possibility that exists beyond judgment.
Warning. This is haunting. You might be haunted. Jayanie and I have a knowing. Between us. Beyond words. Beyond time. This we know. Though we had never met. Might there be nowhere to get to? Might you call off the search?
What is it that lives in the space between any two people in a relationship. This film is a portrait of a marriage, and considers the experience of appreciation, gratitude, trust and love.
Beyond the drama of tragic events lies the deafening, visceral and prolonged experience of grief. An experience that is seemingly untouchable by those who look in from the outside.
Before your words of encouragement and well-timed advice. Before items gifted at beyond an arm’s length. Did you ever consider the one thing that might turn the entire world on its axis …